[Day: Monday, January 19th. Time: 11:00 a.m.] [The Wards are chillin' in the Rec. Room, watching "Contra: The Movie". It's got virtually no plot and is basically 90 minutes of two Rambo-clones blowing up various aliens with really big guns. The Guardians are somewhere! Maybe here! Maybe not! You tell me.] [Session Start] [Following Contra: The Movie will be F-Zero: The Movie.] [And then Tetris: The Movie.] (Sounds like a marathon.) ( It's a movie channel ) ( A movie channel which only shows movies based off of games. ) (So when do we get to see Lord of the Rings: The Movie of the Book of the Game of the Movie?) ( Seriously, I have no idea what to do here, so... here's your chance for developement. Talk or something. ) (I will show up in the room in a second!) * Luana alternates between watching the cooler explosions and working on a really big logic puzzle in a magazine. She's wearing all black today. (Rose is in the security room, so everyone who's interested knows.) (May I join you there?) (Not like Rose can stop you!) (So sure. ;P) * Jamie softly pushs the door open and creeps over to one of the loveseats. She isn't caryring Ten or her tray so her arms are wrapped across her chest as she hugs herself. (Hey, she could always shoot him and dispose of the body.) (Yeah, but he'd have to get to the room first.) * Luana looks up and says cautiously, "Hey. Are you doing any better today?" * Jamie shakes her head and gingerly sits down and pulls her knees up under her chin. ( Let's say Togo is there too. Why the heck not? ) * Keiko walks into the room after a few more moments. She's wearing a black t-shirt and jeans, probably the same jeans she tends to wear into the garage. She just looks tired, holding her duck at her side. She sese Jamie standing there and stops for a moment, before groaning. "Did Heinrick pay you with something to be here?" * Jamie looks at Keiko and shakes her head. ( Togo, there is an actual #securityroom, if you wanna be there too :P ) * Luana marks an 'x' in one of the boxes on her puzzle before looking over at Keiko and smiling brightly. "Sit down with me. Watch some explosions. The pyrotechnics are pretty good in this one." ( Ah, I did not know that ) * Keiko walks around the other side of the room, which is to say not towards Jamie, but rather around to more Luana's side. "You should ask him. I bet he'd love it. More testing." She looks down at Luana and smiles weakly. "I've got a bit of a break, I suppose..." she trails off and glances to Jamie again. * Keiko thinks at Luana as she sits down slowly, ~How's she been doing?~ ~Not well. She sits like that a lot and doesn't talk to me. Not that she ever really did, Ten was always the one talking, but....~ ~She's usually off with Roseli, anyway.~ [Pyrotechnics is pretty much all the movie is.] * Keiko licks her lips and thinks, ~Yeah. She... yeah.~ She puts her duck on her lap. "I'm working on my strength now. I might be able to carry things for real soon." That's good. I've been doing accuracy training every day. * Luana scowls. "I -hate- sheep." * Keiko looks askance at her. "Sheep? You're... training with sheep?" Sheep with -tazers- in their mouths. Togo said he meant for them to be were-sheep, but he messed up somewhere. I get three chances to hit two sheep, and if I miss more than once, they zap both of us. * Keiko sighs and says, "That sounds sorta like my training. But with people." Beat. "The zapping." She glances over to Jamie again and then thinks at Luana, ~Do you... think I should try thinking at her?~ ~...I don't think so. She might get upset like Ten used to do.~ * Keiko shakes her head a little. ~Ten is... gone.~ She shivers. ~Really gone. You didn't feel...~ she licks her lips. * Jamie just sits on the chair staring at the wall next to the TV. [The door opens! And Iris Koenig pokes her head in. "Oh, hello." She glances left and right, then asks, "Have any of you seen Cyra? Uh, I mean Karin?"]] ~I always sort of hoped she was real.~ * Jamie shakes her head at Iris. * Keiko smiles weakly at that, then finishes, ~She just... she's lonely. Afraid.~ And then Iris peers in, and Keiko responds flatly with, "No." * Luana says quietly, "We'll tell her that you were looking if she stops by." [Iris nods. "Okay, thanks." She leaves!] * Jamie goes back to wall staring. [The wall is much less exciting than the TV.] * Keiko waits for Iris to go, then thinks at Luana, ~I just couldn't punch through all that anger. Now I don't know if she's ready for two new voices in her head. Even if they're ours.~ * Luana blinks and looks to Keiko. ~I- what? Two new voices? Did... what?~ * Keiko smiles weakly at Luana. ~Our voices. Us talking to her in her head.~ ~How would I do that? I can only talk to you.~ * Keiko smiles slightly. ~It's part of what I can do.~ She sighs, exhaling upwards. ~I... wanted to do it earlier, so we could all talk quickly, but Ten was... way, way too angry.~ * Jamie continues her studies in wallpaper. * Luana smiles slightly. ~You have three-way calling in your head?~ ( And free minutes after 9:00 on weekends! ) * Keiko pets her duck and then thinks back, ~I... something like that. But with all the people who couldn't be talked to, it didn't really matter.~ She licks her lips. ~I'm not sure I'm ready for this.~ She looks over at Jamie. (I get free minutes all the time!) ( Maybe just leave a message for Jaime? Go straight to voicemail? A mental text message? "R U OK WO 10?" ) (Jamie: Ten used to answer all my text messages for me.... WAH!) (I'm gonna miss Ten.) (So am I ;_;) (I won't!) (I'm mean!) (You are! *sniffle*) (I trained you well.) ( If you miss Ten, you can go see her in the kitchen! ) (XD) (Ew) * Keiko sucks in a shaky breath, then says, ~You wanna try now?~ (And they've probably cleaned that up by now) ~If you think it's okay... then yes.~ * Keiko chuckles to herself and leans back into the couch. ~I don't know. I just know that _she_ is scared and needy, and you are sad and worried, and if I sit between the two of you too much longer, I'm going to have to shut down unless I do something.~ ~Okay then. Um... do I have to do anything special for this?~ ~Nope.~ ~Okay...~ * Keiko looks over at Jamie again tenses her body, and and speaks into her head quietly, ~Jamie, it's Keiko and Luana.~ Thankfully for Luana, Keiko's not giving Luana the emotional feed! (only one and is needed!) (But a comma is needed too. Sigh. Typin' well tonite.) ( Jaime's built in psychic defenses kick in, removing Luana and Keiko's memories of cake and Kirby. ) * Jamie jerks up and starts to think questionionly ~Te-~ but doesn't get any farther than that before the conditionig kicks in and prevents her from having, much less finishing that thought. She whimpers and holds her hands up to the sides of her head. (But Zarina always wears Kirby stuff. Does that mean I forget Zarina's clothes.) ( Yes. You see her naked. ) ~I'msorryI'msorryI'msorryI'msorryI'msorryI'msorry (repeat x infinity) ~There's nothing to apologize for! It's okay.~ ~I'msorryI'msorryI'msorry~ ( She doesn't always wear Kirby stuff. She always wears skimpy stuff :P ) * Keiko winces visibly and tightens her hands on her duck, but she keeps it up. ~I knew you were afraid a lot, Jamie, but one sorry was enough. Calm down.~ ( Brett, might I recommend working up (or having someone work up) a brief drammatis personnae for the site, so we have a quick reference for various important NPCs? ) ( I did that ) ( Check Blitzkrieg Staff and Other Important People under Other Stuff ) * Jamie shudders and then lowers he hands. Mercyfully the endless stream of apolgy stops. ( Oh. Whoops. ) * Keiko slowly relaxes. ~Thank you.~ ~Jamie... we're worried about you.~ * Jamie both speaks and thinks in responce to that. ~ I don't know what to do!~ ( Do a barrel roll! ) ~I know what that feels like. I just... what I did, I kept moving. I keep training and working and getting better.~ * Keiko tightens her arms around herself and replies, ~It hurts to have a piece of you taken away. I... we all know.~ ( If Luana hadn't improved, Togo would've taken her spleen. ) ~I ... I don't know how. ~ (Is Jamie still saying that stuff out loud?) (Yes) (But I need my spleen! For... whatever it is that a spleen does!) (So maybe that should be "~ ~" ) * Keiko thinks back, ~It's a wound, Jamie. It'll heal.~ She pats her duck's head. ~Luana may not be in your head, but she really does care. She's good at that.~ * Luana smiles. ~Thanks. Jamie, did you know that I spent about a month curled up without speaking to anyone before Blitzkrieg took me in? I know what it's like to, to not know what to do. To be afraid of everything. It can get better.~ * Jamie rubs at her eyes and mumbles, it comes through much clearer on the telepathy. ~I don't know what to do. I can't know what to do, but I have to know what to do. I don't know how to know. ~ ~This organization needs you. This -country- needs you. We were all chosen because we are worth being trained and used.~ ( And the sad thing is, she believes it. ) *** Heinrick is now known as RowynAway (Absolutely!) ~ I ~ She gets cut off again as her brain rejects the thoughts she's trying to have. Her body shuders. (Actualy, no, on second thought that one works. lemmie restate) * Keiko glances to Luana, then just refrains from responding, looking up at the ceiling instead. ~I'm not the one who was strong. Ten was. I'm not her> ~ * Keiko thinks back at her, ~Patriotism aside... you don't need Ten to tell you what to do. You were Ten. Ten was you. You just... fragmented, I think. A long time ago.~ * Jamie shakes her head. ~I'm not Ten. I can't be Ten! Ten's pure! Ten's strong! She was a godess! I'm just the nothing that has to belive in her!~ ~AND I CAN'T! ~ * Keiko curls up a little as she thinks back, ~She was afraid. She was angry. She kept me out because she was afraid I'd take you away. She didn't even want you eating chocolate much.~ * Luana says with slightly more curiousity than concern, ~She was dependent on you. She couldn't even -exist- without you. Doesn't that make you the stronger one?~ * Jamie shouts and thinks. "~GO AWAY! ... I'msorryI'msorryI'msorryI'msorry!" She huddles in on herself. * Keiko murmurs quietly, "It's so empty, but so strong," as she mimics Jamie's huddling to a lesser degree. She rubs her stomach and thinks back more 'softly', ~Luana's there for you, Jamie. Even if you don't believe what she said. Right, Luana?~ ~Of course.~ ~ I don't want Luana there, I want Ten back! I want her to tell me what I have to do! I want her to think for me! I don't want to have to be here anymore! I want to be nothing again! ~ *** Signoff: Luana (Read error: Connection reset by peer) *** Luana (WD@24.152.198.19.res-cmts.eph.ptd.net) has joined channel #MC4 * Keiko thinks back at her, looking at nobody, ~ It's easy to be nothing. But it's... it never goes anywhere good. Never. ~ "~I don't care!~" * Keiko muses mentally, ~You're heading towards a place you... can't even imagine.~ Beat. ~It's... you might be the only one of us that doesn't have to do it alone.~ * Keiko then chuckles very weakly. ~For real, anyway.~ "~I am alone! Roseli won't let belive in Ten! That's all I had! All I was and it's gone!~" ( Steal Keiko's duck ) (;_;) (Somebody would have to order/ask me to) * Keiko grits her teeth and thinks back, ~She wasn't the one who enjoyed chocolate.~ "~I ... I don't. She... I'm too weak.~" * Keiko replies back in an annoyed fashion, ~Then get stronger. If I can go through this stupid physical training so I can lift normal things, you can try to do normal mental things.~ ( Quick! Turn on Barney! ) * Luana stays silent and just listens. * Jamie sniffles. "~I'm not you.~" * Keiko grips her duck and thinks back, ~I know that. It's a comparison. Luana got left by her guardian, and she's still here, I... I...~ she trails off as she stands and walks away from the couch and over towards a wall, which she leans against with closed eyes. ~Luana, think with her a second.~ ~You're not weak, Jamie.~ *** Signoff: Jamie (Read error: Connection reset by peer) *** Jamie (randoms@c-24-23-218-70.hsd1.ca.comcast.net) has joined channel #mc4 *** Jamie_ (randoms@c-24-23-218-70.hsd1.mn.comcast.net) has joined channel #mc4 (Oy!) (Did you see my last paste?) * Jamie_ shakes her head. "~I am!~" *** Signoff: Jamie (Ping timeout) (Also, this is hilarious if you can only see Jamie's side of the conversation.) ("I'm not you!" "I am!") (Pretty much!) ~Has anyone other than you said that?~ (Logic! DISALLOWED.) (Where Lu said I wasn't weak) (She means has anyone other than you said that you were weak.) "~Yes!~" ~Who?~ * Keiko stays leaning against the wall, duck clutched tight. She's breathing slowly and deeply, maintaining the connection between the two. "~The ... The High Priest.~" ( Damn you, Ratzinger! ) ~Who is that?~ * Keiko squeezes her eyes tighter. *** Signoff: Jamie_ (Quit: Wrongside?) (I'm confused.) *** Jamie (randoms@c-24-23-218-70.hsd1.mn.comcast.net) has joined channel #mc4 (ARGH) (Man, you are having a mighty suckful time.) (I want my mac back ;_;) "~He ... He's the one that called Ten and made Hotaru.~" ( He gave Hotaru boobs ) ~Did you want to be... to be Hotaru? Did you want to be blind?~ ( ... oh lord. Bad image. It's a dick in a box! Ooh, box! o/~ ) (XD) ( ......... ) (Get out.) (You get out.) "~ I ... was always blind. Ten gave me light. ~" ~Has anyone other than him told you that you were weak?~ ( ^_^_V ) (No) *** Jamie_ (randoms@c-67-180-9-50.hsd1.ca.comcast.net) has joined channel #mc4 "~ Yes. ~"\ ~Who?~ *** Signoff: Jamie (Ping timeout) "~ I don't know their names! I don't know! ~" * Keiko looks over at them and thinks, snappishly, ~Then they don't matter! People suck! People. Suck. People are mean and hurtful and uncaring. They say things they don't mean, or say things they don't know. That's people.~ ~They all sound worthless to me. Blitzkrieg never thought you were weak, or they wouldn't have taken you in. Roseli doesn't think you're weak, or she wouldn't keep working with you.~ ( Maybe it was Haohmaru. "GWOOOOAAAAAHHH!!! YOU ARE W-E-A-K! IS NO ONE STRONGER?!" ) *** Jamie (randoms@c-67-180-9-50.hsd1.ca.comcast.net) has joined channel #mc4 "~That's why I need Ten! ~" *** Signoff: Jamie_ (Ping timeout) ~I can't...~ ( Good grief ) * Keiko takes a step away from the wall and picks up for her. ~No, that's why you don't need Ten. You are plenty strong. You have a roommate who will help. You even have me to help, for what that's worth. Ten's just another way to tell yourself you suck. Like those people who told you before.~ (I'm still here) ~You can't let your mind tear you apart. No matter what people do to you. You can't. You... just can't.~ "~I ... don't understand! Why are you all doing this!? ~" (Bring it home, Luana!) (Before I fall off again!) ~Because whether you like it or not, we are your teammates, and we are your friends.~ "~ I can't have...~" She shakes her head slowly. * Keiko frowns and thinks in a determined tone, ~No. No, you can't disbelieve us. We're right here. You can even see us now.~ * Jamie turns her teary eyes to look at Keiko. "I know. I don't want to know. Please stop." * Keiko looks to her eyes a moment and then takes a step back, clearly shocked and pained, before replying quietly, speaking for the first time in a while, "You can do it, Jamie. You have to." ( Apparently, Ten was the only thing keeping RDM's connection stable. ) * Roseli appears in the doorway as if by magic! The magic of walking. There's a mug in one hand. She looks over the girls. (I hate you for saying the right thing Keiko!) * Togo is also there! In the background. Please don't make him be comforting. (I love me for saying the right thing!) * Jamie looks over at Rose and doesn't respond to Keiko. * Luana watches Jamie. * Roseli looks at Keiko evenly, then says, "Give it a try, Jamie." * Jamie 's eyes widen, but she still doesn't say anything! * Roseli walks over to her ward, having a seat next to her and handing her the hot chocolate. She reaches into her pocket and pulls out a packet of tissues, offering her a few. ( The tissues are cursed ) * Keiko looks over at Rose and her body tenses, both hands clenching on her duck. She tracks her all the way across the room with her eyes. * Jamie uses both hand to take the mug and just holds it for now, breathing cocoa fumes. * Roseli nods when she sees that, then looks to Keiko. Yes? * Keiko closes her eyes and whispers quietly, but intensely, "How could you tear her apart like that." ( Chocolate: It cures the trauma of forcibly altering split personality disorders. ) * Jamie trembles. [Jamie fails to get high off cocoa ] (;_;l) * Roseli places a hand on Jamie's shoulder, trying to calm her. But to Keiko, she responds in an even voice, "How couldn't I?" * Keiko opens her eyes and steps towards her, whispering, "That's... that's not the point. You ripped a hole in her mind. I don't even know if I can..." she trails off. I don't have superhuman hearing, Keiko. If you want to talk about this privately, you're welcome to come with me to my office. * Jamie continues to try and lose herself in the chocolate. ( "Yes, just attach these electrodes to your head while we talk, if you don't mind. ) * Keiko shakes her head and speaks up. "You--I'm just so--I-er-" she clutches her head and steps back, before saying audible, but still quiet, "Maybe... maybe I will." I think that's best. * Roseli glances at Jamie, then stands up. "I'll be back soon." She looks to the two who aren't Keiko. "Don't tax her more." And then she leaves, waving for Keiko to follow her. (Okay, so who of Togo, Jamie, and Luana, is also Keiko?) * Luana goes back to her logic puzzle. * Keiko nods and returns both of her hands to her duck. She thinks at Luana softly, ~If Roseli can touch her, so can you.~ And then she drifts after Rose. (Togo and Luana.) (She was talking to Togo and Luana about Jamie, silly buns!) (Ahh) (Brett, we need a Rose office channel!) (Hey, I'm perfectly capable of stressing myself in the third person! Or I was anyway!) ( #Roseoffice ) * Jamie takes a very small sip of her cocoa now that it's cooled down. * Togo pokes his head in. "Luana, if you need to stay here, that's fine. But if not... baaaaa." * Luana looks very much like she wants to argue that her logic puzzle is somehow more important, but instead she tucks the magazine under the couch cushion and heads out. "I'll see you later, Jamie." * Jamie doesn't respond, but if Keiko were still in here she'd be able to sense a great deal of relief that the inquisition is over. ( Aaaaaaaand if nobody minds, can we end so I can get some sleep? =p ) (I'm good for ending.) (Well I'm by myself, you and Lu just wandered off so if there's nothing you need to do, yeah. Rose and Keiko can just keep going without you) ( Unless Jamie wants an NPC to show up ) ( Okay, I'm out. Night folks. ) (Jamie doesn't *want* anything but Ten back) ( Night Jesse ) ( Well, do you want an NPC to show up, or not? :P ) (I think I'm good to finish. Unless you get something special going it's most likely to be more of the same.) ( Nope! So ) [End]